Seems like years since I’ve written a proper blog-blog. I’ve spilled my soul out before, but it was using personal pages software, or a diary in laymen’s terms. Private, and for my eyes only. It’s been a good while since I’ve used it either. It’s stream of consciousness stuff which is often ranty and nonsensical. You have been warned…
Working as a temp is all well and good, but at the end of the day you just don’t feel like you’ve achieved anything. The next day everything resets, you do the same job, and it’s as if what you did didn’t even matter. Who would know in the great scheme of things. But it’s a job, and for now it pays the bills. As long as I keep working at the thing I’m passionate about we should be A-OK. Which for me is writing. But of course it’s not that simple. There’s another problem — make that “challenge to overcome” (I’m trying to think positive here!). I come home from work and all I want to do is jump onto the Internet, or load up a DVD. Am I really passionate about writing if I can’t even strike up the motivation to pick up a pen or keyboard? I don’t know, but it’s worth trying. It’s all I’ve got.
So I’ve devised another system to help get things done. This is just one of many approaches I’ve taken in the past. So every day for this past week I’ve written on a different topic. On Monday it was a news article which I’ve only just posted. Bloody laptop adapter’s fried again, and I only bought it a month ago! But that’s a rant for another time. Tuesday was the blog, which is the thing you’re reading now. I hope anyway. If so, please congratulate me for making it this far! The plan is to write as soon as I get home, just to forget about checking emails and twitter — they are not going anywhere. Then I can spend the rest of the evening doing whatever the hell I want. Wahoo freedom! As tempting as it is to stick in another disc of The Wire (Season 3 was amazing by the way) I need to stop, take a breath, and decide what’s really going to put fire in my belly.
This addiction to television and other media is like the drugs being sold on the streets of Baltimore. I’m like McNulty, but instead of cases to keep me going, it’s television shows. Sometimes I even wonder if it’s still the games biz I want to get into. I mean I’ve invested all this time playing them, keeping up with the news, and gaming communities and all that. But it’s really television that has come out of left field and snuck up on me. Right now it’s the thing that really gets me going. Who would’ve seen that coming? But I haven’t chosen sides just yet. For now I’m keeping an open mind.
I want to write, rather, I must write. And hopefully it will be about something I’m interested in, whether that’s games, television, or something else entirely. I may have quite a few years ahead of me, but no one knows for sure. I need to move now. I need to live, and stop watching the world whizz on by. I want to be a part of it. And that my friends is what I most desire. Thanks for listening.